i'm a loser baby.. so why don't you kill me
so... you really want to know about me? lets start with the basics:

my name is justina. i'm seventeen. my birthday is April 19th (i expect presents) as you can tell by the hideous picture above.. i have black hair, uhh brown eyes.. yeah, pretty plain. which is probably the reason why i'm single.. very single. probably will be forever. ANYWAYS.. i have a dog<3. i smoke, kill me, it's the only bad habit i have. i drink once in a never and drugs are just a pathetic way to fuck your life up. i don't usually talk about it.. but i've been diagnosed with severe depression. which i think is a load of bullshit. every teenager goes through a "depression" period. it was pretty bad, but i'm over it, and that's all part of my past. i don't have any self confidence, so i come off as shy & quiet. i do keep to myself though. and usually to get away from reality i write, alot. or listen to music. anyway.. i live in a real shitty town; poland, in the wonderful state of ohio. i'm a senior in highschool and plan on going to college for nursing. who knows what'll happen tho.. i try to live my life one day at a time to the fullest [try living on the same street, in the same house, in the same town, with the same people, for seventeen years, and you'll learn that it's not that easy].

anyway. i've been labeled "goth" since about freshman year, all due to the fact that i wear a band t-shirt about everyday which are usually black. cause you know.. just beacuase you wear black & dark make up.. that makes you goth. but i've now switched labels to "that girl that's a cross between goth & punk" (amusing.. i know) label me and call me whatever you want.. because if you do i probably don't like you, therefore i don't really care what you think. incase you can't tell.. i hate labels. i'm a big believer on that whole "it's what's on the inside that counts" thing. i know what it's like to be judged, so i like people for who they are, not what the dress or look like.

music has been a big part of my life ever since i was little. my mom used to blast bruce springsteen and barbra stresiand throughout the house. what a combination, huh? i guess thats where i get my liking range of music. i listen to music from Pantera to Brand New.. Marilyn Manson to Alkaline Trio. i guess the generes you could say i listen to are metal, emo & punk. i'm on a pretty good emo kick as of the moment tho. my favorite bands are, GlassJAw, Alkaline Trio, The Juliana Theory, The Used, Taking Back Sunday, Brand New, The Ataris, The Get Up Kids, Thursday, The Starting Line, Smile Empty Soul, Radio Head, Misfits, Finch.. there's a ton more, but that's just off of the top of my head. music is my escape from reality. it's basically my life. i can't live without it. i've been to a few concerts Blink 182(when they toured with Alk3), Warped Tour '02 & '03, Ozzfest '02, Taking Back Sunday (New York, Pittsburgh, & Cleveland)and tons of local concerts. My two favorite local bands are The Resistance & Ten Count Fall. --> here's their websites; check them out. www.theresistance.ws and www.tencountfall.com I also plan on attending the Taking Back Sunday concert in Pittsburgh this month, The Thursday concert in Cleveland in October , and the Alkaline Trio/From Autumn To Ashes Concert in December.

right now my life basically consists of finishing up my last year of highschool and working. i work 6, sometimes 7 days out of the week. i was brought up that you need to work for what you want. so i've been working my ass off ever since i got my license. it's really not bad though. it's good to feel independent. 

my friends are amazing.  i can't express how much i love them.  i have a few close friends and that's all i need.  i'm so close with them it's scarey, we can finish eachothers sentences.  we've built so many memories together and i know i'll never forget them.  i can go on and on about how wonderful they are.. but the only thing i can say to sum it all up is that i love them with every part of me, and i don't know what i'd do without them.. best friends means.. best friends means..



alright.. i think i've talked more then enough about myself.